I'm still alive

Hey hooo, yeah it's been ages I know. Haha. So......yeah what to blog eh? Hey life is pretty much boring? OKAY. That's a start. Life after SPM is actually something you're not looking forward to. Why huh? Well, because you end up sitting at home doing nothing. After all the plans you've planned with your friends, actually never really happens eventually. Bluerhh. Everyone's working bla bla bla yes I am working too currently but my time is really flexible (yeahh lucky me) but hey I babysit my niece too for the past 2 months and it's been hectic but fun. My sister and her baby had gone back to her house now so my house is pretty much quite now without my niece :(

Anyways, Chinese New Year is just around the corner. Bless to chinese people, enjoy your time. While me and my family are still figuring out where to head this weekend during Chinese New Year just to bring my grandma out after she'd lying down in hospital for 2 weeks unconsciously due to food poisoning? I think so i'm not so sure myself what had caused her being in the hospital. We were so scared that we were gonna lose her and never stopped praying for her and yeah god bless her, she's still with us. As healthy as before :)

So yeahhh...i'm still thinking what to write though....okay i'm just bored it's 12.40am now in MALAYSIA ahahaha. Eh heyyy I just heard fireworks! Ahh there it is, it begins today. Well enjoy your CNY and I bet most of them will get tons of ang pau. Iwanttooo. By the wayyyyyy, I haven't watched movies for so long it's like i'm dead at home my friends aren't even around I need to be alive again hahahha. It's only February you people and and omg that reminds me of something -.- SPM results is coming out next month (sorry to remind you ppl too) Great that's just great sigh. And i'm so not looking forward to go to college our UITM. I'm just not ready and will never be.

p/s these pictures are random so yeah kbye

 My sister and her first child

TEDDY NI MY DAD PUNYA KERJA EH NOT ME HAHAHA

 Meet my cute niece!!!

Anxious

So here I am blogging, even though I'm having mid-term exam. Just want to update what has been going on lately. I still have 4 papers to go? All of them are science subjects and Add Maths. Can't wait to finish as I really can't go through this anymore. Been super busy with other activities as well. Out of all the time why now? Sigh. I hope I can manage to find some time to study the rest of the subjects. Then school's gonna off for 2 weeks! Hell yeah! But still. I'm really worried about my studies. I feel stupid when doing the exam papers because I don't know most of the things. I still have a lot of things to cover up. Kill me.

On the other hand, my cheer competition is coming up, next month. Less than 40 days! And we haven't even prepared everything just yet. I have faith in my team, we'll do our best :) It's been so tiring. I'm trying to give my best commitment in everything I do as I have been thinking a lot nowadays and affect my studies. I feel like giving everything up but when I think twice, if I do it, I'll be regret. I guess? I really have no idea. 

By the way, I came to school today realized that we were going to celebrate Teacher's Day. I'm like -___- really? They didn't even informed anything. And there was this one teacher entered our class and was using straw as a cane (usually teachers use wooden cane) it was seriously funny but irritating. He's such a freak I even make a fun of him. He even touched people's ear using the straw! I was like 'You need help teacher' Hahaha. He even thought we were taking perdagangan so I told him we are science students not arts students. We don't take perdagangan. Then he got confused. I think he got into the wrong class! Hahahaha freak. Kayy i'm so mean hahahha but anyways, I have to go study. I'll blog more soon. Till then, xoxo.

     

Haluuu

Hey bloggers! Miss me much? Haha no? Of course ^^ So I've changed my blog URL due to some reasons. So forgive me if some of you couldn't find my blog. I don't blog much anyways. And omg, this new blog is actually cool shit haha. Blogger has upgraded, interesting. This makes me wanna blog even more hehe.

Life is pretty much hectic lately. Besides I lost my IC, left my bag in a restaurant, naaahh nothing much happened. LOL hahahahha. Yes, my IC is just disappeared. I couldn't even remember when was the last time I saw my IC. I'm so careless lately and because of that my dad nagged at me. Of course. I don't mean to trouble my parents, I don't even have an intention to do that. I was so sad and frustrated because of it. It's not the fine I worry about, it's the process of getting the new IC is just complicated and takes forever.

I've self-motivated to my own self  because I feel bad. My parents have done so much things for me and sacrifice some things for me and I don't want to waste all that and I hope what they've done for me will be pays off someday.

So called the beginning-of-2012

It's only February and I'm already stressed like shit. Too many things in my head that I don't even know what to do first. So many ideas and plan to do from now ahead. My first monthly test is less than 2 weeks away. So I just want to prepare for my test. I do not want to study LAST MINUTE like what I did last year. Please not anymore. Regret so much already!

My life may be extremely great sometimes but in the same time it can turn upside down too at times. I'm looking forward to what's gonna happen in the future. I even haven't decided what I am going to do. Scary :3 Feeling so old la. Haha. But anyways, it's going to be a different life from now on BECAUSE my sister just got married like a month ago so I kindda feel lonely sleeping alone without her. No more laughs and jokes together anymore. Things won't be the same in my house. But however I will always pray for her happiness in her marriage and hope everything will be perfectly fine. I made my brother in law promised me to take care of my sister! :D and he was like "okay!" hahaha. Oh well, life :) Everybody will get married eventually aite :) But not me. I might stay single foreverrrrrr. Hahhaha.

I must say 2011 was a great year (I think) I've been through a lot. And I learned so much and experienced a lot of things. What a year :) I just hope 2012 will be a better year and improve myself and turn myself into a better person. Yeah.

It's just that I hope what I'm waiting for since 2010 which I still haven't figured it out what to do about it is worth to wait someday. I've had enough and the last thing I want is to get disappointed. I don't want to waste my time waiting for something that's not gonna happen. It's just not right and things have changed a lot. I want to do what's right for me but in the same time I want what's best for other people as well. Everything just seems so hard.

Another post

Great times

So i'm going to blog about what has happened last weekend. So here you go.

Hope

Hmm it took me for like 10 minutes to figure it out what to blog about this time. I'm just gonna say anything randomly that pop out of my head.

It's kindda sad and frustrating knowing that your own family doesn't trust you anymore. Doesn't mean I lost the camera once, i'm gonna do it again. My sister bought this one camera and she mentioned that she will never ever let me borrow her camera because she doesn't trust me anymore. My family is just not supportive and they just pushing me away. It just broke my heart.

Sometimes I just feel like I don't have any friends anymore. I still have my bestfriends and I can just talk to them but then at the same time, I feel like I don't wanna burden them with my problems and stuff but at the end of the day, I'm the one that feels lonely.

And him, he didn't even call me for like 2 days? Yeah happened few times before.

I just hope that my life would come back to normal. I miss my old life.

I WILL NEVER GET WHAT I WANT! I will never get what other people is having. Butttt, I have to learn to accept and appreciate what I have right now. As much as I hate to say that but yeah. Be grateful Dila. Whatever comes just be patience. Things happen for reasons.

ANYWAYS! It's already 2.41 in the morning? And I'm still awake.

And look I changed my profile pic for my blog!! >>>>>>>>>>>>>

Yea look like a retard haha. Sad, i've been abandoning my blog for like quite some time. Imma blog more often from now on onwards. In case you haven't noticed I changed my blog background as well :) And the font, the colour, EVERYTHING!! haha.

P/S I'm sorry for being so emo lately. I can't help it.

I'm out of here. Tomorrow will be a better day, hope so. Till then <3