Hard ya?

I ate Mcd 2 days in a row. That makes me cheer up a little bit as i'm very depress lately. Somehow that's still not enough. Of course it's not because that won't change a thing or make things better. So yaa

I'm going through difficult times these past few days. Had a big fight with someone. He scolded me and yelled at me and say things that really hurts me very bad. This bad feeling is gonna take some times to heal :( I'm so depress right now. Really can't describe by words. It's tough. Have no idea wht to do right now. I'm so downnnn. It just so hard going through this process.

It was my fault though. I don't know how to take care of ppl's feelings sometimes. I just let it out just like that by saying stuffs that can hurt ppl's feeling without thinking first :( I am very sorry. Maybe this happens for reasons. Shit la wehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. GOD, i hate this :'(

I hate struggle through life. It all just seems have gone wrong. I'm not good at this. Life is just hard. I have to accept that somehow. Whatever it is, i still do have a choice. It may be not an easy choice, by any means. It may be a very difficult choice. *sighs*

I might go crazy la O.O i hope this won't affect my health as my cheer comp is just 1 week away so is my sister's engagement. I really have to get this out of my mind. I wish i could -.- It's not easy as it seems. Someone pls wake me up!!! I really don't have 'the mood' to do anything including any things that i use love to do it. Just 'knock me down' can ya? Fucked up. Enough said.