Stand strong

I just dont feel like i have a boyfriend anymore. There's so many things i wanna tell him but when i confronted him, my mind was totally blank. I didnt know what to do.

Coz i know i will never get what i want. I cant have him! i have to accept that. no matter what.

things have changed. things go differently now. i tried to call him, to apologize. but im scared if the same thing will happen all over again. i dont wanna hurt anyone right. as the matter in fact, i dont wanna get hurt by anyone as well. i dont wanna repeat my mistakes again.

i know im not the first person he loves,

but i love him so much till i dont wanna lose him. but this is all bullshit and i just feel like giving up. but i dont want to. nothing can bring me down.

Usually i go for what i want, but this time its not the same anymore.

This is all wrong and i wish i know what to do to make things better.

Now, i feel so empty.